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Oh I miss being a nursing mother, but I also don't miss it at all. Oh the conflict. Such a lovely compassionate piece, Sara.

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We're just a week or two away from starting solids with our baby, and I'm simultaneously so excited and so sad about it. Such a special, difficult, beautiful season of growing.

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These words are pure magic, thank you ✨❤️

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This was so beautiful Sara. Stopped breastfeeding my littlest a few months ago and this took me straight back ✨

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This is beautiful and I'm crying

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So glad you enjoyed it, Hallie! I think I was crying when I wrote it tbh (((((: but probably just from overwhelm and hormones

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I miss being a nursing mother :’( I don’t think I made it past 3 weeks with my 3rd this time around. I suspected a tongue tie and tried to get help but I was limited. I couldn’t bare the pain & crying anymore so I opted to pump instead. Was hoping to be able to try again as she got older but my supply tanked severely after getting sick and I just couldn’t keep up. Last month we finally switched to formula and I still find myself saddened by it.

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Ahhhhhh sweet Michele, my heart aches for you. I'm glad that your sweet babe is getting what she needs, but I know that decision can be such a heavy one. You're doing great, mama.

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Thank you for this reflection. Beautifully written. You capture the contradictions of motherhood so well-that line of “you’d die for her but you wish it could be a little easier to live for her” absolutely floored me

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So, so glad it resonated. It is such a vocation of contradictions.

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I'm coming up, with our third, on the time our second was about ready to be done nursing.... keep wondering when it will be. I do love nursing but also feel like a new, different woman when it's done! Lovely reflections here.

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Ah, yes! I was already pregnant with our second when our first weaned, so I haven't yet experienced that reset... I'm not necessarily looking forward to weaning, but I'd be lying if I said there aren't days I'm ready to be not nursing.

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Totally get that.

(And by the New Woman Reset feeling... I should clarify that I was pregnant both times weaning, as well. Ha! This will be my first time weaning not pregnant. Our bodies are amazing to be able to do all of this, though.)

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Ain't that the truth! I experienced such strong nursing aversion while pregnant, and still get twinges of it during overnight feeds if I'm particularly hungry or sleep-deprived. I'm hoping that, if and when the next one comes, it will be after some time for a true reset... but the Lord will provide either way. It truly does leave you feeling like a bit of a badass though, to know that three human beings (self, toddler, baby) are being sustained in whole or part by your body.

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